Thank you for your concern...

Keeping things to myself and not telling people is always my "habit" or rather my character...
cos i feel that there isn't a need to go around telling people how i feel or what problems i encountered... Im considered fortunate enough that im not tied down with some serious financial problems, or some other problems that people around me are facing... why add my problems to others?

some may think that writing here is as good as telling people...
yes, i agree, indirectly...

but i see this blog as a form as 寄托...

i always feel better after posting...

and its a one way thingy... this blog will always be here for me to pour all my sorrows and happiness in... and it will not complain a single word...

telling people, i might think that after i tell you something, you might think differently, and things will start to change...

my problems, all this while, is always my emotions...
something that nobody can help... but myself to overcome...
Its accumulative... things dun happen overnight...
I have phobia... what if the next one ended up the same like the past...?
I dun dare, really dun dare to take the risk to take the first step out...

封闭自己。。。 是不想让外面的世界伤害我。。。