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我要唱下去!!!
and im having my off rest again...
wow... the week ended so fast...
before i even realize... its mid may already...
haiz...
feeling quite stagnant in my job...
boring at times... or should i say most of the time...
and when a person is bored... mind will start running wild again...
should i look for a new job???
i must move on...
i did a very brave move today...
i rejected the request of changing service...
because somebody MC again...
WTF...
My service today was so relax...
if i agreed to change service, i must be out of my mind...
on the spot i said dun want, i dun want to change...
wahahaha....
sometimes, i have to learn how to reject people...
this way, my life will be better...
just blame it on the person who took MC...
being kind to others is being cruel to myself...
i rather see other people suffer then myself suffer...
sorry but i have to be selfish... if not, i will get "eaten up" sooner or later...
not going to care so much...
cos caring too much will only leads to myself to be too emotional...
anyway, im not that impt all along... does not make a difference if im not around...
no one will realize...
=)
happy mother's day...
Mother Tan and two mother Lims...
And of cos to my dearest mother Zhou.
After today, maybe fb will have lots of photos if Friends bring their mums out for dinner or something... Some may even cook at home, just for today, 1 out of 365 days... Hahaha....
I'm on my way to work, last dreadly shift, next three days will be quite relax for me, mid shift follow by two short service shifts... And off rest for me again...
Two more weeks to show's concert...
Short Getaway
Back from a short getaway... Batam...
a place where "they" claimed that men like to go for... ... ...
but maybe because i did not go to those "areas"...
so did not notice...
Anyway, there was this ang mo with the local girl at our hotel (Harris Resort)...
i think the girl was "hired" to accompany him bah...
and i think the ang mo is blind or something...
not pretty...
About an hour's trip...
here we are...
true enough... got welcomed by a welcome drink... not nice... wahaha...
checked in...
hotel room was big... compared to other countries that i went...
but the biggest room i ever stayed was in KL Time Sqaure hotel...
and the room was "comfortable"... haha
because everytime i went overseas and i always think about "something else" in the hotel room...
but this time the room did not give me the creepy feeling...
changed to our swimming attire... slack @ the swimming pool...
went for banana boat ride... wahahaha....
the time was short but its fun and damn funny...
one having difficulty getting back up to the boat...
another rather die than letting go of the handle...
three of us got slammed into the sea...
only she... still stayed on the boat in an awkward position...
had our lunch @ the restaurant after cleaning up...
the free pizzas were delicious...
went down to town and did some shopping...
root beer float without ice cannot make it...
had some doughnuts , damn i missed those we had @ Jusco, Malaysia JB....
got a bag for my dad, after some bargaining although its already very cheap... haha...
had a sumptuous dinner...
chit-chatting session...
complaining about work, new relationships etc...
enjoyed the session...
expect for the cat... kept on harassing us...
count down for his birthday @ our hotel room...
had birthday doughnuts on behalf of a birthday cake...
knock out thereafter...
Happy Birthday Alan... Third time im wishing you... Hahaha... wish you happiness...
the rest nothing much to say about...
back to Singapore...
two more new friends joined us for dinner @ Ah Wang, Bugis...
Had a "vase" of HK milk tea...
Table of six...
only one is unattached...
haiz, very sad to say... its me...
finally got home, and had a small chat with dad...
a "debrief" about my trip...
haha~
very tired, although din do much things...
i think i cant stay up more than 12 hours...
will be very tired...
cant sleep,
have to wait for my clothes being washed and have to hang them out later...
sleepy...
lucky im off tomolo... if not... waking up damn early makes me feel like taking mc...
hmmmmm...
Being a perfectionist is not a good thing anyway.
I expect myself to do things the way I wanted and I want it to be as perfect as possible. And most of the times I'm giving myself so much stress that I gets very tense up most of the time...thinking that making a small mistake can cost me to be in serious trouble... But it's not the case, it's just a common mistake that everyone is making... But I just take things too seriously...
Be it at work or personal, i demand alot from myself and my friends. Even not replying msges pissed me off easily... I'm a very patient person in the past, but now I demand everything to be done like straight away...
I keep on blaming people for this and that and I dun see myself in any wrong... what is wrong with me?
Friends had alady find me rather irritating nowadays... Maybe I should do something about it...
I hate being who I am now...
I'm not fit to be a best friend to anyone...
When will I start to take thing easy and not to be so demanding?
Life is so miserable...
Took leave tomolo for a short getaway cum celebration of Alan's birthday...
Was so damn boring last night during work...
log on to msn and see if there is anyone i can chat with...
but all not free...
one wants to watch her drama...
one wants to go take a short nap...
haiz...
log onto FB and find trouble with cake...
wahaha...
Chatted with PX after so long...
heard tt she kena bang dao by someone at work...
haiz...
working society is like tt...
when you perform better than others, they got jealous and start to pick on you...
telling tales behind you...
when you talk louder than others, they think you are trying to be a leader...
haiz... then how? keep quiet, talk less, do more?
thats what im doing at work... but... guess what...
they say im too quiet, should mix with them more...
then how? if i talk more, people will start to tell tales...
wah, you see last time he so quiet, now he talk like old bird...
knn la!!! talk also kena, dun talk also kena...
haiz...
hope today will pass-by faster...
so reluctant to go work today...
wanna laze at home or go for sun tan...
haiz...
bad day...
Went down to PS for window shopping... So many things I wanna get... Some nice furnitures I saw at spotlight... Should get an electronic tooth brush as friends had good feedback...
Received an sms that made me really puzzled and somehow spoilt my mood... Dun wanna explain in detail cos nothing can be done... But this does proven me one thing...
Just receive my confirmation letter, and there is an increment in my pay!!! WOW!!! I dunno I want to cry or laugh...
Someone throw mc today, and initially I have to take over the duties but luckily my ren yuan is good, they assign another one to take over, so my plan still remain unchange... Gonna watch ip man 2 tonight...
Is it very common that in big companies, people always like to take mc? it's like a trend that it's a must to take at least one mc every month... I'm trying my best not to be like them, but if I'm being assigned to take over rotten shift... I will not hesitate to "get sick"... *cough*cough*
勇气带加上宽容
在加无止境溜光的等候
以为这些付出等于美好结果
你却说凭什么
我相信你爱护我
只是爱没有想像中的多
对天空的辽阔来说云算什么
你不会懂我渺小得多宽容
* 爱你不重我要自己不要放开手
不痛不痛 心却独自跳的好寂寞
幸福那个一个美梦 是二人同行才有
你渐渐缺席让我悲叹在未来的入口
# 爱你不重尽管我无力再向前走
不痛不痛 就算辛苦得震耳欲聋
爱你我爱到最后 剩回忆这个朋友
爱情从二人同行变成我一个 默默后承受
我想过很多以后 幻想过快乐也愉悦心痛
爱就像是偏执的风 改雾悬空
只问前进忘了要怎么降落
(Repeat * # * )
爱你不重
不痛不痛 就算辛苦得震耳欲聋
爱你我爱到最后 剩回忆这个朋友
爱情从二人同行变成我一个 默默后承受
Finally, this day is coming...
in another 1 hour...
wahahaha~
gonna save up for my birthday present...
hopefully by then im able to purchase...
why they dun have installment plans... wahahaha~
my wallet is going up the lorry soon also~
should change a new one...
so many movies coming up...
so wanna watch them all in a row...
iron man 2, ip man 2, ice kacang, clash of the titans...
maybe can arrange to watch right from the morning till night...
wahaha...
still waiting for the cheap deals for iron man 2...
love working afternoon shifts and on public holidays...
PH=more money...
haha...
working morning shifts, all i can think about is knocking off early... tts all...
since everyone is busy with their own things, and i got no one else to date...
might as well earn more money...
but i dun like to work OT...
i need to rest... in order to walk further... like tt say correct or nt huh? hahahaha~
Im so "lucky" that im working on all the public holidays in 2010...
indeed an eventful month...
First, this month im going to get a lot of relax shifts...
some mid shifts ending 10 plus, been a long long time since i got mid shift man, should visit mustafa after work, some shifts i do not have to stay inside the "cage" too long... hopefully this will stay the same, if somebody were to throw MC or what, things will change, and i will start cursing... wahahaha...
Alan's birthday coming up...
hope this can be a memorable one...
somethings can only happen once and will never happen again...
tts why its worth remembering...
Liping's baby full month on the 15th of may...
may not be going cos working morning...
if time permits, i will try to make it...
Congrates to her...
felt happy for her now...
cannot imagine if she is still with "him"...
wahahaha...
Show's concert...
This may be the last concert im attending this year...
Really looking forward to this concert...
how things can turn out to be 3D...
Dunno what pat is planning over the weekends...
KTV? or another steamboat... of cos not at my house anymore... wahahaha....
should plan a trip to RWS or MBS...
have not been to these "new" places before...
not even marina barrage... damn im hell of a zai nan...
which are the new places tt i should go in singapore huh???
maybe my next off days... take one day out to explore all these places...
Eh, MALAYSIA LEH!!! when are you free to take me to the seafood feast...
im waiting!!! whahaha....
faster come back please...
yesterday my area was happening man...
and let the "jurong gang" see how happening my house area was...
1. few lorries of lion dance troupes...
dunno what big event they are having...
2. Ambulance came to the swimming pool opp my house...
someone drown?
3. A small explosion was heard from as far away as bishan park...
and there was fire... SCDF came...
also dunno what happen...
4. my scv box finally went up lorry... cannot power on...
All of the above are purely coincidence... wahaha...
back to my cable box...
called 1633 the very night, the customer service officer said to me that i have two choice
1. Make appt with the technician... The earliest they can make it was MONDAY...
seriously, me and my dad cant live without cable tv...
2. Bring the set down to service centre and do a one to one exchange...
well, of cos i made the second choice...
today, early in the morning, went to lavender to book alan's birthday trip...
then make my way down to PS's starhub service centre...
eventually, they change the box set to a different one, which i think look smaller and nicer than the previous one... wahaha...
got home and set up the box back...
have to wait up to 30 mins for smart card validation...
haiz... whole life waiting for this, waiting for that...
Do i live to wait, or wait to live???
Sometimes really feel tired of all this... TIRED!!!!
Had steamboat while watching star awards...
damn full now... wahaha...
yeah~ felicia chin say this year will be her last year standing on stage...
ya i agree... dun like her... esp when she run... damn ugly... wahaha... silky girl? wahahaha....
was touched by some artistes when they say the thank you statement... really touching...
esp Zhu Hou Ren... got the best supporting actor... i watched his drama grow up one leh...
LONG TING GUANG... wahaha...
this time round steamboat @ Chew residence... wahahaha~~
I can consider this as a "belated" house warming cos the last time i did not invite a single friend to our house warming...
And its really warm to some of them... hahaha...
and we have uninvited guests, do i call them files? or ants with wings... wahahaha...
due to the rain, all of them come into my house for shelter...
and the weather fits very well with steamboat... cooling...
12 of us... including "long time no see" Benny and Yiwei...
almost 2 years since the last time we saw yiwei...
watched some dvds while chatting and having our steamboat...
as usual, alot of foods were left behind... gng to have maggi for the next few days...
or maybe another steamboat session... wahahaha....
hope to have more gatherings... maybe twice a month... or more...
Keeping things to myself and not telling people is always my "habit" or rather my character...
cos i feel that there isn't a need to go around telling people how i feel or what problems i encountered... Im considered fortunate enough that im not tied down with some serious financial problems, or some other problems that people around me are facing... why add my problems to others?
some may think that writing here is as good as telling people...
yes, i agree, indirectly...
but i see this blog as a form as 寄托...
i always feel better after posting...
and its a one way thingy... this blog will always be here for me to pour all my sorrows and happiness in... and it will not complain a single word...
telling people, i might think that after i tell you something, you might think differently, and things will start to change...
my problems, all this while, is always my emotions...
something that nobody can help... but myself to overcome...
Its accumulative... things dun happen overnight...
I have phobia... what if the next one ended up the same like the past...?
I dun dare, really dun dare to take the risk to take the first step out...
封闭自己。。。 是不想让外面的世界伤害我。。。
esp from a nightmare...
I had the worst nightmare ever...
I committed a crime...
investigated by police...
chased by police...
Im a wanted person...
Its so real that... thats the end of my life...
just one stupid wrong move...
changes your life entirely...
the feeling is like you lost everything in life...
everyone looked at you differently...
im scared when i woke up...
and thank goodness its just a nightmare...
so please, think before you do anything,
one wrong move may cost you a lifetime...
like what PX said, we can do almost eveything with our iphone "on behalf" of our pc...
check email, surf net, uploading picture and now even blogging was made possible when on the move... u need to type documents? of cos, words, excel, anything, iphone has it all...
and now i can even check my bank account balance, transfer funds, just that i cant withdraw money from my phone... if not, BEST!!! but this way, i will be broke even faster for the month...wahaha...
all you need is to search for right apps... u need it, they have it...
but personally i prefer blogging and doing my documents using my laptop la...
screen is bigger, typing is easier...
unless, i had a sudden urge of like blogging STRAIGHT AWAY... i can still do it... hahaha...
that's the wonder of Iphone... new generation coming out... should i change???
Thanks Jolene for making me so sad for telling me that S.H.E is going to disband...
and really, this "news" really made my days and mood really bad...
and today, after watching kang xi...
Yes, they may go try other areas, but they will NEVER EVER disband...
so, looking forward to Selina hosting some shows, Hebe cutting her own solo album. Ella acting in some dramas/movies...
*LOVES*
This year is indeed a year full of concerts...
S.H.E
MAYDAY
Aaron
Sammi
Show
Elva
F.I.R
Jay
Stef Sun... most regret i din get to go...
and i believe many more will come...
Rainie?
Angela came last year or this year? hahaha...
JJ came last year or this year?? wahahaha...
but i think i should stop...
if not i wont be able to save money...
haiz... money again...
Topic was about.... Tattoo...
just nice... Alan had his first tattoo recently...
After watching some of the guests' tattoo...
some were really nice, some... i felt abit stupid to tattoo "that" on the body...
some, you can only see in the Monga movie... oh ya, just watched this movie...
nice~ really reminds of my sec sch times... wahahaha....
They got five of them... we got nine of us... wahaha... stupid~~~
Anyway, back to tattoo...
going for tattoo, esp the very first one needs alot of courage... which i do not have at the moment...
after tattooing, they say will increase the confidence and will become braver than before...
is it true???
Alan had a "dragon"...
what should i put in future...
why my parents dun named me an animal...
maybe Zhou Xiao Zhu... (小猪?)
or... Zhou Lao Hu (老虎?)
Now in my mind, tattoing a H, erm... some will think too boring...
how how??? any suggestions???
Oh ya, and tattooing is addictive...
and i know its true...
Yiwei proved that to me...
and Alan is on the way to his second one...
while waiting
A sudden feel of being useless in life just gushed into me... Feeling why am I not earning as much as others... Every month I have to crack my head over money matters... Tons and tons of bills to settle... Trying to save some money and yet spending more and more and still dunno what have I spent on...
So useless of me for not earning much enough... I dunno what can I do... I'm lost... Once again...
updates
1. Me using handphone has got nothing to do with him... he is not my manager, he is just somebody in charge of just one station.
2. He knows who i am, but why the hell must he go tell somebody else to pass the message to me instead of telling me directly.
wtf is he trying to show, throwing his weights around? showing to me that he have the right to tell us off...
come on, he was one of us before... why must he do this, and im not doing anything wrong... not as if im playing PSP or listening to music...
nvm... i will remember...
in working society, you get to meet all sorts of people... esp people who seems to be nice to you, and stab you at the back without you knowing...
nothing seems to be going fine last night...
T.R.U.S.T
this is what i expect from all my friends, and i expect myself to be trustworthy towards my friends as well. I will be very disappointed when someone breached my trust in him/her, and from then on, i will not trust this person anymore... Like i said, i do forgive but i will never forget. U made me a fool in front of other people, and untill now you still do not know. I am still expecting an explanation and an apology...
Im glad that you stayed on your current job instead of coming over to mine. At least you get a taste of your own medicine.
The bitch in wonderland strikes again...
Letting the small bitch to go up to the sofa...
Pluck out my plug and din bother to pluck it back, and slam the door to show tt she is unhappy with me saying her...
She COMPLAINED to my weakling brother about my dad not closing the door and LET the small bitch ran out, and my brother sided her as usual and told me to tell MY DAD off... WTF, u mean everything we do, we have to look out for her? Come on, is the house ours or belongs to the small bitch...
Still dare to tell my dad off, who the fuck is she?
Just someone who on the air con 24 hrs 7 days... Mess up the place and dun bother clean it up... Walk around in the house with a towel as if the house is hers... And bath or doing business with the door open... Fuck you la cheap whore...
Skip the first part... go to second part of the clip...
Have you guys forgotten him?
I fell asleep, leaving the tv on...
ans i got woken up by his singing...
partly because this song is one of my heart break song...
Listen to how he sings the song he wrote for Stef Sun...
Very nice~

..."Then, the other guy, who seemed to be a friend of the first guy, came and soon they both started feeling her up, touching her breasts and kissing her on the lips and cheeks.
"I could not figure out if she was feeling overpowered or enjoying it.
"But from what I saw, the girl seemed to consent to the guys' actions and that she did not try to push them away or anything.
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You might think that its common for such a thing to happen in clubs nowadays...
but should the girl at least have a bit of self respect?
letting TWO guys having their own ways and instead of rejecting, she seems to be enjoying the "company" of these two guys...
some even comment, "if you cant take it, just stay at home and sleep..."
what if that girl or guy is your bf or gf? can you still take it???
I do have a "DOWN-TO-EARTH" thinking sometimes...
IF SOME GUYS ARE JERKS, SOME GIRLS ARE NO BETTER...
U cant blame it all on guys, girls do played a part...
it always takes two hands to clap...
Early in the morning...
begins with an unusual task, away with the normal routine...
shorten my "resting"time... damn~
expect the unexpected...
a series of unfortunate events kicks off...
The command center sure to have a very bad morning today...
wahaha...
Time seems to be crawling today, and my damn iphone battery is deteriorating so fast...
dunno whats wrong with her, im not running any apps or staying online... the percentage just decrease like lehman brothers stock market...
the only lucky thing i had was she was kind enough to left 2% for me to run up to the recharging point to recharge her...
Been a long time since i board a SMRT bus, i got onto service 851 to go back AMK to accompany my friend who sprained his back... he is going to throw MC tomolo... one down... haiz... Anyway, the bus journey was disastrous, the bus captain was driving as if he was louis... reckless driving...
and when a bunch of students got onboard the bus, he just shouted at them to moving inside... HELLO HELLO MOVE MOVE MOVE~~~ and his face was so cramped and stressed... or look more to a bo chap behavior... We really have to hold to whatever we can hold on around us... or we will fall for sure...
Do they care about the safety of the passengers? Do they even have the basic customer service skills? No wonder they lost some kind of best service awards to SBST...
Anyway, the day just ended... and im wide awake now after a short nap... hate morning shifts.... messed up my sleeping routine... haiz...
Somehow i felt that the coordinator is bias...
why my rota this month is so suck to the core...
not that i want to compare, every week im looking forward to at least one or two days relax shift... but its always the same person getting all these, and we as new staffs are getting rotten shifts... not going to expect this month's allowance to be alot...
Is it true that people who knows how to "carry balls" progress faster than those who really work hard to climb up the ladder?? Some took 6 years to get promoted, some took only 2 years... Its gonna be hard for me to climb, cos i dunno how to carry other people's balls... why must i waste my own money to buy things for "them"? If you do not have what you got to get promoted, people dun look up to you, you dun earn other people's respect... you just have a tag hanging on your neck, ball carrier...
Life can never be fair in this world...
be it in work or relationships...
Hope things will get better and better in the years to come...
for me and my beloved friends out there...
its like our friends and family from the other world getting bonus...
Went to pay my respect to my "never see before" grandfather and my grandmother...
Spare all the details about mosquitoes, the sun, etc...
what im curious is why hell notes have to be few hundred thousands dollar a piece...
As i was burning these hell notes... i was asking myself, wah, do they really need so much money??? is like they are billionaires over there... Maybe a bowl of noodles over there cost Ten over thousands dollars... wahahaha~~~
Anyway, this year should be the last year we are going to different places to pay our respect.
Intending to "gather" everyone to one place....better for us as well as "them"...
Genting Trip in July CONFIRMED!!! YESH!!! and i just have to take one day leave...
that's the benefit of having three days off days...
Many big events coming up...
S.H.E concert...
Alan's Birthday...
Show Luo Concert...
Thats all for now...
gonna head out to PS for buy new heater and bolster for my dad...
Broke broke broke...
If you are emo enough, sing along with her...
you will cry when you sing towards the last part...
like what i did...
我不是一定要你回来 只是又把回忆翻开
到底还有谁能来教我爱。。。
i was being said to be too negative...
and i admit
but please understand that somethings can never be forgotten even if you tried to forget and not to think about it...
Ger, you should know this more than i do right?
like i said, i can forgive, but i can never forget...
long forgotten what is it like to be loved by someone from the bottom of her heart...
i was being "played" with my feelings... i can trust no one anymore...
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i deleted off this paragraph...
cos... no use saying all this here anymore...
whats done is done...
i will live a better person...
and im happy with my life now... i not like the past being a poor student anymore...
i have a stable job now, good income, good benefits, working towards my goals...
i dun gamble, i dun drink and i dun smoke... anymore...
stay healthy as long as i can... stay happy is the most impt...
going out with intercon friends and my besties...
cherish them more than anyone... needless to say, he is the most impt man in my life... and i must cherish the time spend with him...
and good news, HE is healthy, just tt his "ka lu lee" too low... given some pills to pop...
thank god, really thank god he is fine...
review three months later...
i love my shifts after my three days off...
its like short hours... 7 hrs of work only...
compare to 9 hrs work before my three days off...
its heaven... time passes by faster!!!
An enjoyable trip indeed...
consider the first time going overseas with such a big group...
The weather is not that cooling as expected in the day...
but when the night falls... its the same like taiwan...
Went bowling, movie, theme park and casino...
lost 50rm... shit... haha~
The hotel, First world...
Small but good thing is there is connecting door the next room...
I prefer Resort Hotel...
More classy... Haha...
when the last day come, i do felt abit sad... cos good times always end so fast...
and we have to come back to the harsh world...
we have to earn more money in order to go back and make a killing... HAHAHA~~~
Overall, good time spent with great friends...
looking forward to the july trip again to genting...
this time round im sure to bring more money and bring back even more money...
hahaha~~~
really hope tt she wont go over so early...
seriously im cant bear to see her off...
find some time out to update before i leave for Genting...
As usual, encountered lots of strange people inside the train...
no chance to take their photos cos too obvious...
one of the unforgettable encounter just yesterday...
this is going to be long-winded, no patience, click on the X on your top right hand corner...
this Indian old man was sitting on the metal area connecting the train cabins together... with his leg spread out...
its quite late and the train is rather empty, i went up and told him to sit on the chair...
he told me his leg pain, must sit on the floor... but he do not understand the danger on sitting on the metal piece, i explained to him and asked him to move to the handicap area to sit... he got angry and asked me dun disturb him... wth, i dun care and just pester him until he move his ass... Finally he moved....
He was holding a can of beer, so i suspect, he was drunk and his legs are fine...
after i patrolled and come back.. guess what, he was sitting on the chair...
i asked him, wah... leg ok already ar? he did not answer me and alight from the station...
i saw him walked out without any limping... so... he acted just now...
think what... his train ar? Just sit where he like...
or his name is SundamBullokSandravasanTham???
idiot....
Had worked for 5 mornings this week... super tired... irregular sleeping timings esp...
almost wanna kill myself inside the train...
but finally, i survived the week, and i deserve a good rest...
yes.. im going for a short getaway... Genting!!!
3 yrs since the last time i went there...
did not went to the theme park... cos overslept...
this time im going in for some good rides...
gonna enjoy the cold weather too...
yeah~~~
Enjoy your weekend...
Earth Day on Saturday... please save electricity... help save the Earth...

He is here again!!!
22 MAY 2010...
Singapore Indoor Stadium
so lucky im off that day...
A very different concert from the rest...
3D effect... First concert that does 3D in the world??? Not sure... i think so...
But before that...
SHERO- 12th Album releasing on the 26th of March... please support!!!

17 April 2010
Singapore Indoor Stadium

Do not have to call cab anymore...
yeah~~~
Only managed to sleep at 1 plus, and i got to wake up at 3am...
dragged myself to work, drove the train early in the morning...
kept on dozing off even when im standing...
how suffering it is when you cant even close your eyes for a while...
thanks to my friends who kept me company by talking to me on msn...
New incentive scheme implemented...
quite happy about it, at least the chances are higher now...
bonus coming in this coming pay...
hopefully i can get a small amount... Haha....
Even the worst got at least one month...
imagine the staffs with good performance... i leave it to you to guess...
TGIF... TGIF...!!!
why must people thank god that its friday every week???
no matter what, Friday will still come...
or you thank god because you believe that god looked over you and you "survived" the week?
Why dun people thank god every single day???
TGIT, TGIW, TGIT, TGIF,TGIS and TGIS....
If you TGIF, what about Monday, CGIM???
you cursed because god let the weekend ended so fast???
Since when the calender has something to do with the god...???
OH MY GOD....
what are the songs that the moment you listen to it...
memories start to flash through your mind... ???
graduation songs...
songs that you once listened together with the one you loved...
songs that you sang for your love ones...
esp the songs you listened when your relationship just ended...
even now when i listen to certain songs...
it felt like it just happened yesterday...
and its so hurt... so disheartening...
and asked myself, if i could do better...
i have many regrets in life...
i really hope someone great will invent a time machine...
20 yrs back is all i wished for...
Will you make an effort to make a complaint or make a compliment...?
Yes, some really deserve a complaint...
but some are being accused at...
you are at fault first and you were being told off...
you are not happy and you turn the table around, complaining about attitude problem, rudeness of the staff... come on... get a life... you are in the wrong, why must we talk to you in a nice tone...?
count yourself lucky when we dun embarrass you in front of the public...
when we help...
people will say its your job... its only right that you do it...
dun expect anything in return...
wtf lo...
Singaporeans...
1) Thailand (1-3 Jan 2010)
2) Genting (27-29 Mar 2010)
3) Bintan (24-26 Apr 2010)
4) ??? (2-??? May 2010)
5) Phuket (17-19 July 2010)
6)Taiwan/Beijing (Dec 2010)
and had been thinking about this issue for days...
kept on asking myself...
why want a car???
My job do not need me to drive around...
I dun drive most of the times...
I have totally free transport now...
when i need a car, just rent one...
if i were to buy a car, i have to worry about all this...
road tax
car insurance
Petrol
Season Parking
Cash card
and many more...
and all these are money...
i would rather use the money to buy many other things to pamper myself more...
Buy my wallet, my bag, my clothing...
and go to nice places for nice foods...
or even save up the money for travel...
sometimes i was wondering, people who travel by public transport...
are they rich or poor???
maybe i should say,
in life, we all have different priorities...
anyway, as a conclusion...
i do not really need a car...
actually by renting car,
i get to drive all sorts of cars...
instead of driving just one all the time...
even if i take cab everyday... its still cheaper...
Haha~~~
A new month begins...
Managed to visit the temple to pray 太岁爷...
Not a bad year for me...
just that i should stop buying 4D and TOTO, cos it says buy already also wont tio...
Haha~
"Lighted" two 长明灯, one for me, one for my father....
Actually i do not know the real purpose of this... prolong the person's life?
after some checks on the internet... here goes...
灯明
燃灯的意义 及缘起
灯,在佛教中又称作“灯明”、“明灯”,意指供奉于佛前的灯火,有油火、蜡烛火等类,为点燃灯火,以取光明之意。
灯为佛教六种供具之一,与香花、饮食等均被广用为供养尊仪之资具。灯可分二种:一为仅用于礼拜、诵经时;二是不分昼夜,恒常点燃的“长明灯”,又称“无尽灯”。
佛教中各式各样的器物,皆是以相表法,都有深刻的涵义。灯明,在事上,能照明一切物、破除冥室黑暗;理上,灯明则代表人人心中的自性光明──以清净戒 体为灯台,信心为灯炷,慈悲为添油,智慧明达如灯火,燃此自性正觉明灯,使之除灭一切无明痴闇,照破暗晦恶法,光明遍满法界,即是“长明灯”;以一灯燃百 千灯,燃灯无尽,灯灯相传,光光相照,即是传佛法灯之“无尽灯”。
灯明供佛功德不可思议
以灯明供佛功德不可思议,《佛说施灯功德经》记载,施灯有无量功德:
一、身无病苦,音声妙广。二、眼目清明,能照细物。三、相好庄严,意无垢染。四、衣食丰足,无有恐惧。五、随缘自在,善财积聚。六、忍辱柔和,成就善事。七、佛光普照,永断无明。
佛陀时代,有一位贫穷孤苦以乞讨维生的贫女名叫难陀,以乞到的一件旧衣换得一文钱,将一文钱买了一盏油灯,欢喜虔诚地供养佛陀,并发愿:“愿此光明 灯,除去无始以来心中的无明黑暗,得大智慧;愿一切众生亦能灭除内心的痴闇。”第二天,所有的灯都熄灭了,唯独难陀女所供的灯依旧光明炽耀,膏炷未损,如 新燃之灯。佛陀随即开示大众,说道:“这盏灯,不仅是用手,就是倾动四海的水来浇,暴风来吹,也不能熄灭。因为这是发菩提心的人所施的灯。”接着即为难陀 女授记,未来百阿僧祇劫之中当得作佛,名号灯光如来。
《华严经》:“善男子!譬如一灯,入于闇室;百千年闇,悉能破尽。……菩萨摩诃萨菩提心灯,亦复如是,入众生心无明闇室,能灭无量百千万亿不可说劫积 集一切诸业烦恼种种障碍。”面对世界上种种的乱象,灾疫频传、战争不断……,人们犹如处于暗牢中,惊恐于每一刻的无常变化,内心得不到永久的安宁;唯有佛 法这盏明灯,能驱走黑暗无明,解开众生的痛苦迷惘。点一盏明灯,恭敬供养于佛,以此灯之光明,愿每一个众生,皆能脱离黑暗之牢,步步趋向光明之路。
hope to have a smooth year ahead...
some progression in my career...
Few trips coming up...
Genting... been talking about this for the last few posts... counting down... haha~
Unknown place- a present for Alan's birthday and a short getaway for all of us...
Taiwan??? maybe at the end of the year...
Japan??? NOBODY seems to be saving up for it... including me... Hahaha~~~
Anyway,
going overseas seems to have become a must for me every year, at least once...
Should plan to go somewhere out of asia...
Was talking to Alan and PX about how bags or wallets can somehow "judge" on a person's status... People tends to look at the bag you are holding, the purse or wallet you are using... and then they will see you differently... Whether its a gift from friends or you bought it yourself, branded stuffs does bring up your status...
and clothing, yes, some clothing may be cheap and nice, but could only wear once or twice... after some washing, it might just go out of shape, or just dun look nice on you anymore...
Quality does counts...
Wanna change a new wallet, but not sure which is suitable for me...
wanna get a new bag...
some accessories...
all this gonna cost me a bomb... err, a few bombs to be exact....
going back to work on wed...
and complains starts again....
had feedback that this blog and my facebook posts are all about complaining...
i will try my best not to complain so much...
hahaha~~~
stay positive and time will fly without you knowing...
gonna sign up for diving course soon enough...
you wanna join???
Nites...
going to work happily, thinking i can relax abit cause i only get into the train in the late evening...
before that i have a few hours to relax at office...
but when i reach there... i saw the fucking arrangement really pissed me off...
They arranged me to go in early which somebody supposed to go in... they replaced him with me... knn...
in the end i got no time to do my paperwork, little time to eat...
on my way to work, i was actually planning to take over my fellow staff's train early so that he can come out a while to relax before going in again...
but such arrangement made me feel like im being bullied by them...
ya, im new... but that does not mean i have to do more than other people so that other people can relax more than me...
nvm, dinosaurs... just wait and see...
next, this old hag manager really getting on my nerves...
just because i did not inform early enough that i will be on MC for that day,
she actually threw me a counseling form to sign...
come on la, whats the big deal....
what is there to counsel for... to have a better planning in which day to have mc???
or next time i can inform early... telling you something like this:
" er, i will be on mc next wed, cause i will be having stomachache, errr, no, this excuse i used it last time, errr... ok, i will be having headache... so... ya... i will be on mc next wed... thanks."
hows that?
stupid old hag...
because of this, i was put under review from March to May... WTF lo~
if my probation is being extended... i will hate this old hag for life...
old hag, old virgin... expired ccb...
From the first day, my colleagues had been telling me...
ITS OK TO MAKE MISTAKES... LEARNING NOW WHAT... NVM ONE... NOBODY WILL SAY ANYTHING....
cb... one mistake only, counseling form come liao...
thanks huh!!!
totally spoilt day.....................
trust no one...
New Year Resolution
If i were to have a chance... you will be the one i wanted to be with once again...
at least i know you did loved me wholeheartedly...
but everything had changed all these years... you had changed, so do i...
we are from two different worlds now...
Im not a horse, and you are not a grass... Hahahahaha~~~
Wish you all the best...
Finally, had my off rest on Thursday and Friday, the past one week or rather past two weeks totally drained me out... I did almost all the spring cleaning, thanks to them going overseas at this timing, smart move huh? and i still need to work on my off days last week... super tiring...
Had a very expensive and expected not full dinner with intercon peepps @ One Rocester, yes, the ambiance was nice, on the hill like dempsy, trees surrounding the area... but still... $65++/person is way too much for me... but its ok la... once in a blue moon... its like high class zi-char... haha~ and i have to mention that i did not know it was so expensive in the first place, so please do not think that i got money to eat such an expensive dinner and no money to go out with ............ ok???
Yesterday went to my army friend's house @ Nouvo, a condo full of celebrities, Mark lee, Vivian Lai and Pan ling ling... Its $800k... but i think not worth the money... small in scale... i rather buy a HDB, cheaper and bigger in scale... whether cosy or nt is up to your creativity... as usual, played cards, lost... damn it... He is getting married in june and it so happen that that day is my off day... Haha... save my leave and save the trouble of applying... talking about this, my off days seems to be speacially arranged for all my besties' birthday, their birthdays just fall nicely on my off days!!! but not my birthday... =(
Chinese New Year 2010.
Nothing to talk about, working since day 1...
Received quite a number of Hong Baos, but gave 3/4 to my dad... filial eh... Hahaha~
gave the money i collected to my dad as an Hong Bao, wishing him good health...
Pay coming in in a weeks' time...
gotta pay off debts...
haiz...
what a card slave i am...
Genting @ end of march... still looking forward, although two members cant make it...
Resolution 2010
1)Good health for my family and friends...
2)Earn more money...
3)Get a car by the end of 2010...
4)Slim down somemore... looking for the "roller", anyone knows where to buy it???
5)Bring my career to greater heights...
Looking forward to my long weekend next week...
just nice my pay came...
Dad going to taiwan...
how i wish i can go with him...
at least there's someone looking after him...
Have a good week ahead... cheers!!!
this song says it all...
突然觉得我只是一个人
有点孤单浅浅的忧郁
我不知道明天会不会很美丽
虽然今天天很蓝
而云很白
风很凉
今天日记空白没有关系
不必每件事情都在意
不想工作
不想困扰自己
不必刻意想你
该是我的总会来
就算挑战
我不走开
一点点你的微笑
已经让我觉得温暖
我还不懂坚持
正好让我
学会去爱
我曾经看见困难
变得胆小
不够勇敢
但还是要相信
相信感觉
相信简单
今天日记空白没有关系
不必每件事情都在意
不想工作
不想困扰自己
不必刻意想你
该是我的总会来
就算挑战
我不走开
一点点你的微笑
已经让我觉得温暖
我还不懂坚持
正好让我
学会去爱
我曾经看见困难
变得胆小
不够勇敢
但还是要相信
相信感觉
相信简单
started my spring cleaning,
come to think of it, abit too early...
but since the new so fa is coming,
might as well do it now...
Yesterday just got my pay
went to purchase S.H.E ticket...
paid a small amount to my credit card bills,
bought a Besta translator for my father... cost me a bomb, but worth it
as he is learning English now, hope this will help him understand better when we are not free to teach him...
Genting trip is confirmed... a total of 18 people going... great and fun group of people going... yeah~
excited!!!
Back to spring cleaning,
just by cleaning up my father's room, drained all my energy... damn tired...
now my father's room is damn damn clean la... Hahaha~
today, went to have my hair cut, cut short and dye... hope tuesday when i go back, they wont be too shock... Haha~
Change my roon arrangement, look more spacious now... and my laptop got a table... and i finally can put my chair into good use...
hope this new arrangement can bring me more luck, more money, more love... LOL~
tomorrow will be cleaning my kitchen, toilet and living room...
new sofa coming on Tuesday... and im knocking off at 1330... must rush home and welcome the new sofa!!!
must find time to go buy things for CNY...
Pray hard, my leave can be approved...
谈起关於你的话题
终於可以不用缺席
甚至还表现得不再关心
从前你是伤的痕迹
现在不过是场回忆
忽远忽近
我怕的是低潮来袭
这城市哪里够隐密
藏住我突然想哭的情绪
宁愿失去斗志勇气
好过和你冷战推挤
这样谁输得起
原来分手是需要练习的
等时间久了会变勇敢的
你慢慢出走我渐渐放手
这不就是我们要的自由
等伤口好了会变轻松的
海阔天空不残留一点痛
回头看怕懦弱
往前走怕坠落
但我一定能学会
在想你的时候 不难过
after this morning's "suffering", i know i must have enough hours of sleep in order to stay awake at work...
slept at almost 1am, woke up at 4am. Totally had no motivation to work...
under such comfortable environment im working in, its almost impossible for me not to doze off...
hopefully im not caught and publish in the STOMP the next few days...
But the good thing about morning shift is of cos get to go home and sleep while some are having their lunch breaks... another thing is esp during weekends, those troublemakers, KPOs etc are sleeping at home... and those on the train are also sleeping, so its a smooth ride for me... who are the troublemakers and KPOs im talking about, i came across an idiot, sorry but i must say he is an idiot... he came up to me and complained that the train door can be open when the train is moving... how do he know??? obviously he stupidly go and try to open the door... is he an idiot?? His face was like he was so proud to tell me that the door can be open... and he did not realize how dangerous it is to attempt to open the door when the train is moving at a speed of at least 75kph.. if you dunno anything about how the system works, jolly well keep your hands to yourself... some other troublemakers, i would say mostly malays... put their legs on the seats, do pull ups, hitting some rhythms on the seats...
for people who tries to drink in the train, i dunno, maybe they are challenging the authorities...
but of cos, there are some passengers that i really appreciate... and babies!!! they are my motivation indeed... they are just so cute and adorable... one moment they were playing in their prams... looking at people in a very curious face... the next moment they just fell asleep... haha~ wanting so much to have one of my own...
im like the most powerful man in the train... just a stare at some kids playing in the train, they will stop immediately and sit there quietly and their parents will be grateful to me... When i asked somebody to give up the seats, they will oblige to it... felt so powerful... hahaha... so far none of them asked why or dun wish to give up the seats... if i were to meet some people like this, i will ask them to get out of MY train... HAHAHAHAHA~~~
Enough of my job...
Yesterday, another baking session of Tiramisu... in a larger quantity, after receiving good feedback from "bank's" friends... This time, with the help of the "machine", we took a much shorter time to complete... I have not tried yet... slept the whole day since afternoon, no time to try... Haha~
decided to whip up some high end dishes on CNY Eve... hopefully my leave is approved...
Some people just dun deserve me being nice to them...
they are just taking me for granted...
im not someone who will treat everyone equally good...
if i feel that you are being unfair to me, i will be unfair to you...
i will treat the same way like how people treated me...
if out of a sudden, i treated you differently, meaning to say, you did something wrong, and im sure you are in the wrong...
i will never believe that one person can be so busy the whole day... you will have your free time during lunch... you will have to go to toilet at times... no matter what, no one can be working NON-STOP... so dun give me the crap that you are so damn busy with work that you cant respond to me until now, i still din get an answer to my questions given to you two days before... i dun expect an answer right away, i waited two days for my answers and still counting FYI... its ok, i dun care... i will ask once, if you dun remember or dun bother to answer, so be it, dun expect me to answer you or respond to you when you need help... and it annoys me when you have the time to even tweet...
im not being unreasonable, why should i being myself down to accommodate when you dun deserve me doing it... i have to be fair to myself...
i dun blame anyone who misunderstood my intention cos they do not know whats happening...
accusing me for just using the mouth and do nothing...
when i did something, were you there?
you were in the room fucking your gf!!!
ccb...
all you know is to push away everything...
yes, you appeared to be a good son to him, im not...
when i asked a little favor from you...
you have 183746539374 reasons to reject me...
asking you to accompany him to just one fucking wedding dinner all because im not free to go...
you looked as if im asking you to go rob a bank or kill somebody...
you never know how is it like to be "interviewed" by all the relatives...
cos you were always at home fucking your gf!!!
KNN!!!
you will never admit you are in the wrong...
you always have 1094756 excuses to turn the table around and point your fucking finger at me...
ya... you are the one who does all the housework, its because you messed it up, why should i clear up the mess for you...
its ok...
i see it all...
being filial comes from the heart, not the brain, telling you what to do when people are looking...
They are here again!!!
assisted PX in making tiramisu and marble cake...
very messy start...
because my house do not have the right machine to "beat" the mixture together...
we have to use our hands... and its G.D tiring... i had to hand it to PX... she is like a MACHINE!!!
and i admit i cant do it like a machine like she did...
it was like going back to our F&N lessons, although we are not partners... but we had gone through the same things together... whipping up lots of delicious foods for the hungry art students...
the whole process was fun afterall...
while we were having our late dinner...
poop... black out!!!!
and its not only my house... its the WHOLE BLOCK...
dunno is it because of me, over usage of power...
we have to do things in the dark, eating our desserts...
the worst thing was the second marble cake was still baking when it blacked out, so it din turn out as good as the first one...
a little gossips here and there, catching up...
small discussion about our next Thailand trip...
this time more people will be joining...
got to apply leave soon, kiasu abit...
New sofa coming... and only humans are allowed to sit on the sofa... animals will be executed when spotted on sofa... Hahaha~~~
Steamboat again... and this time no matter how much i ate, i dun feel full... unlike the last time at kate's house... something is wrong... Haha~
We chatted about the life in Intercon... how fun it is when all the kahkis worked together, like i always said, we dun go and work, we go and play instead... we laughed about all the stupid things that happened, the stunts we did that are hardly to be seen nowadays... but that was all in the past... good memories...
and i must apologize also... why you guys kept on having the smell of durians... not the malay family downstairs... is me... i ate some before going... and eveytime i "burbs"(dunno how to spell), somebody will say: "ne! durian smell again..." so pei seh lo... i tried to prevent the smell from coming out... but... sorry i kept quiet... Haha...

If your relationship is on the rock... catch this...
I always thought that why couples like to quarrel even over a small matter...
i dunno if its right or wrong, its actually a way of making the bond stronger...
come to think of it, my short relationships actually ended without any quarrels in between...
they just ended, without me knowing whats wrong sometimes...
now i understand...
why some couples cherish each other so much, because they had gone through ups and downs or what they call "thick and thin" together... and during those mishaps, they realize how important are they in each others' hearts...
that's why people say that relationships without conflicts or quarrels or whatever, usually dun last... cos either one or both dun feel the importance, even if they broke up, they wont feel a pinch... in fact they do feel relieve sometimes...
"You do not feel so much for each other untill you suffer together. It is in times of adversity that one appreciates the goodness of one’s life partner most. By late president Mr Wee Kim Wee…"
Was listening to the first song on my way back home...
really do bring back lots of memories...
used the second song as our primary school farewell concert...
and i still remember the "moves" when we sang this song...
and at that time when we sang this song, we cried together like there's no tomorrow...
you know... those were the times...
really missed my primary and secondary school times...
Supposeed to be on the bed now...
started my shift work this week...
trying to adapt to sleep as early as 8pm and wake up as early as 3am...
but still, as long as i think positively... nothing is a problem to me...
although i have to work early, but i get to knock off early as well... hee~
hopefully can get my uniform tomolo...
feeling kind of extra, wearing differently from others...
Anyway, its 2010!!!
The year started off with a short getaway to Thailand with my two besties and Brandon...
Although i went Thailand countless times... er... actually its the fourth time only la...
But this trip was considered my first holiday trip... the previous trips were either training or study trips... din got to explore much...
Thanks to the two tour guides(PX and Alan),
i got to understand Thailand more,
got to watch an eye-opening show... seriously i felt abit disgusted la! but its a fantastic experience...
Was amazed by the stunts indeed...
got to eat "look disgusting but tasty" insects...
powerful massage that made me so "comfortable"...
Spent S$400 there like a king... bought way too many things... and still not enough...
we discovered a place that sells many nice and dirt cheap clothes, but its abit too late, we spent almost all our money elsewhere...
Will be going again in May, if nothing goes wrong, hope my leave will be approved... have more money to spend there...
Got myself a new year gift, Iphone...
i admit, when alan first got the iphone, i was like, whats the big deal about this phone...
i realized its really a big and good deal... this phone is a wonder... its able to give whatever information you need, update your fb anytime, anywhere, check your emails, the apps are damn cool and useful... just that its battery life is short, waiting for the time to come for its prison break...
got the phone a bling bling cover... love it...
Went to the famous four-faced Buddha... made a few wishes... hope all three of them can come true... but no matter what, will they come true or nt, i will still go back...
Hope 2010 is a great year ahead, things i have not achieve, hopefully can be fulfill by this year...
hope everyone is in good health, esp my father...
Look forward to many long weekends this year...
jia you!!!
No matter how sad or happy you are, sing out loud!!!
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