Complain entry...

4AM in the morning, and im still not asleep. Why? Am i going back to the life i had in the past? Sleep late and woke up when the sun was about to set? Jus got back from a chalet, it was fun indeed, although its not what i expected, "people gather together to play some games, or jus sitting around chatting about the common topics we had." Maybe theres too many people or maybe they think its rather boring to do these stuffs. Mahjong, Poker, gamble... I did won some money from "rainbow", Haha, but i have to treat her dim sum in return, so its as good as not winning any money anyway. Haha... Good tt shao cong was there to make the place lively, making everyone laugh non stop and this also apply to people who dun even know who is he, indeed a guy full of craps.

Din get to sun tan cos its was raining badly on the second day, i jus have to sleep the day away. Haha~ Saw lots of familiar faces on the second night, but din talked much to them cos long time din see each other, dunno what to say and talk about. Haha... Or rather most of them dun remember who is this guy call Hanwen... Why Ta Dong shaved his hair? i still remember he had his hair dyed with lots of diff colors, green? Purple? Celine arrived after work and we only got to talk for a while, talked about her future, do you really have to work in a job that was related to your studies? Really hope she can decide wisely...

Is it good to understand a person before getting together? or the more you understand this person, the lesser chance it is to get together cos knowing too much things about each other isn't good at all...

Haiz, i always tot that being nice is good enuff to maintain a relationship, but nice does not mean everything, feelings, chemistry, the right time, the right person, all these have to be taken into consideration. Is this what they call "Perfect", but no one is perfect right? Love is blind, or are we all blinded by love?

I posted a question:" what kind of a person do you think i am?" Many answered LAME... Am i really tt lame? being lame, cracking jokes, make a fool of myself to see people smile or laugh... Am i really happy doing all this, jus to see people around happy? So do you really understand me? Who am i behind this mask?

Still upset over the matter bwt my old pals... When will be our next meeting up? or that day will never come ever again. Is it really over? Are you guys really had let go or given up on each other? I missed all of you...

Life is so unpredictable, things can just happen in split seconds, friends turn enemies, couples become strangers, having a happy family this moment, an orphan the next, its so scary. I once tot that when i get old and was on my death bed, how crowded it would be around me, or theres only a nurse beside me, waiting to cover the blanket over my head and ready to pack up the equipments. When is the lowest period of your life till now? Having no one to turn to when you need help? Feeling so helpless as if you are the only one left in this world? Humans are so selfish and heartless... 人不为己， 天诛地灭。。。

Everyone have two faces, and always have a knife behind their backs. Talking to you like a good friend, but stabbing you like nobody business on the behind. Adding salt on the wound while consoling you on your failed relationship. Im still upset over what this person said, and i will always remember what she said, not knowing how hurt am i to hear this. (What she said i cant post here) Although we are not close, but you dun have to say as if you know me inside out, and you only judge people on the outside. Im ugly is not what i wish for... Accept me for what i am, who i am. Hate me all you want, im jus a jerk in your eyes. I do have a lots of mask with me, and a chopper, not a knife, so beware, you might found yourself dead the next moment you say B Y E to me.

Enuff of complaining, feeling so shiok... Haha~

Going off to hongkong soon, will get small gifts for friends i treasure, dun worry...
Will get a big one for you, Celine, cos i owe you one... remember? Hope this trip will be a memorable one.

Dun think will be sleeping le, gonna study and prepare to do the following on tuesday:

1. Go NTUC buy shampoo, freshener.
2. Meet sister sylvia to buy facial products from her
3. Meet my sylvia mei on her first day of work at TCC
4. Go Heeren buy sunglasses
5. Meet my army brothers for farewell dinner
6. Pack my stuffs to run away from home
7. Mugging

"Counting down the days... Finally its going to end, i can be myself again..."