Just some of my random thoughts...

We should learn from mistakes, and not repeat them again...
Every time i realized myself being "used", bluffed, taken for granted or being treated like a fool...
i told myself to "protect" myself from being used, bluffed or taken for granted again, therefore the "protection layer" had become so thick... till i cant trust anyone at all now... sorry but i have to say this...

Is it because i dun throw my temper as and when i like or knowing that you are in the wrong but i still hold my temper and act as if nothing happen, i can be taken for granted? or i should be like some people, talk right from the heart, just speak whatever is in my mind, i know if i were to do this, i can be very annoying...

To be frank, im afraid of making some people angry, i tried not to say anything extra, thats why even if im angry with somebody who just used some harsh words on me... i kept quiet... cos if i were to respond, it will spoil my mood as well as others...

Can i just turn around and go home whenever im not happy???
Can i just throw my temper at anyone when im in a bad mood or feeling tired???

I always have a feeling that you guys have something hiding from me or have something against me, please do tell me...

Is there something wrong with me having to think of all this...

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One should look forward...
but the things that happened in the past had resulted in how i looked at things in future...
I had never heard of your news at all for the last one year or so... ever since you were with him...
sometimes you tried to talk to me, is it because you were bored? found no one to talk to?
or im always the last person you will look for...
Now that you are alone... you were so actively contacting me... whats the meaning of this?
You still treat me as your spare tyre...
I assumed all this cos your actions made me think this way...
correct me if im wrong, tell me what are you thinking now...