Esp these two years, seems like everybody are getting married...
many of my campmates, sec sch classmates, primary sch mates are married now, maybe some with kids already. Starting to feel like... what am i doing...? still enjoying singlehood? NO IM NOT ENJOYING AT ALL... i tried but failed... rejected N times, be it indirectly or directly... Haiz... Sometimes coming to think of it... really makes me feel so down for the entire day... It had become a kind of phopia... thinking, aiyah, no chance one la... no point trying... not up to her expectation... well, im just not that good enough... Lost all the confidence i used to had...
SERIOUS EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN X 4 and going on...

Everyone seems to have achieved something in their life... house of their own, car, career, their lifetime partner... and im still here... nothing achieved... i really should start searching instead of waiting... i need motivation... alot... but this time i must think before accepting the offer given... one must have his own expectations... pay is what matters most in this society...

So fast man, its thursday tomolo... few more days, my new lappy will be here... please come faster... gonna play L4D... Must go Malaysia for some softwares and games... Haha...

Should go for a run later... in my dreams... or in somebody's mind... OhhhhOooooOooooOOooo