This song had been repeating in my mind today while im busy with my work... A song sang for someone who left the world many years ago... unwillingly...

Im supposed to feel happy... 1505 is the day that ends another small chapter of my life... I felt more sad instead... i guess im starting to like this job... the people working with me... but i have no choice... but to leave...

Went amk central with px yest evening... saw my father going to have dinner at the hawker... i went up and joke with him a little... asked him what is he eating? and why is he alone? He answered me, im always alone... ... ... ... ... i dunno how to react... he just squeezed my heart till i cant breathe at that moment... I somehow recalled the scene that he sat in the living room and started crying in the middle of the night 6 years ago... he had been so lonely all these years, no one can ever understand the pain he is going through... the loss of someone he loved the most in his entire life... If i had put in more effort, he would have been playing with his grandchildren instead of animals... i dunno when will that day come... no matter what, he will have the chance to hug his grandchildren...