08/08/08
F.I.R concert


I dunno what to say...

When you feels lonely and you had no one by your side... you should be feeling what im feeling now...

Had been sleeping real early during weekdays which i had not been doing for the last dunno how many years, i can actually sleep at 7.30pm and wake up at 6.30am in the morning. I tried sleeping late but my eyes dun allow me to stay up anymore, and when i sleep LATE, means im going to be LATE for work, two times, i woke up at 7.30am, i start work at 8.00am... Now i know why my friends who worked office hours have to sleep b4 10pm... Is this the life im going to lead in future?

心花朵朵开- a 7pm drama show i had been catching. The father in the show reminds me of my dad, without a companion by his side, he is all alone, sitting at the living room watching tv. When is the last time we had dinner together? Two sons had grown up-The big one, stayed at home but cooped himself and his "dunno is gf or wife" in the room. The small one, left the house early in the morning and have to sleep early in order to wake up early the next day. Everytime i got home and saw him, looking at me, frowning, i really dunno what to say to him... im sorry... Everytime when im in trouble, he is the only one who helped me get out of difficulties. He is always been supportive to what i want to do, im sorry i cant contribute much to the family and din manage to find time out to accompany you. Things will change for the better definitely, 10 more months, i promise...

I had been complaining why this family din gave me what i want, but i had never think, what did i give to this family... nothing...

Theres a news article reporting a china teacher ran out of the classroom, leaving all the children behind during the Earthquake, now he was sacked because of this. The headline was Cowardly Teacher... Guess what is his name, Fan Meizhong... 范没种。。。no balls in between his legs?

Maybe i should not show myself for some time... like this, i will be forgotten overtime... Nothing is forever, not even friends...

Get well soon...