I dunno why, im too emotional i guess... i just feel so sad... i must face what had appeared in front of my eyes... i must accept the reality... its not the first time anyway... Maybe that explains why the sudden change... I guess its my fate... i should not pin too much hope and ended up like this... and nobody can understand how it feels...

Im considered lucky to won tickets to S.H.E press conference... What's more? Px and me were allocated seats right in front! Im just 5m away from them!!! Haha... Ella was just as 38 as before... Hebe, no need to say, just so cute, she mistaken the camera mic as the normal mic, the whole ballroom broke into laughter... Selina, also no need to say, gorgeous is the word to use on her... LOL... Had a group photo after the conference but we din get to take with our own camera... Px were saying we should be in different so that we can take for each other... The best part was i got to shake Ella and Hebe's hands, not that i dun wanna shake selina's hand, just that there was a big sized crew "protecting" them from the fans... I suppose its once in a life time thingy... to shake Hebe's hand... Haha~ Px asked me when am i going to stop supporting them... i replied till i die lo... cos i cant find any reason not to support them... just that i stopped going to those crowded events... Hoping for their next concert...

It hurts me when you showed a "cant be bothered" attitude...
Is it wrong of me to show my concern and getting worried when i cant hear any news of you?
Just put yourself into my shoes, a good friend of yours suddenly disappear and din even bother to just say that she is fine when asked what happen to you? Yes you may be busy at work, but you cant be so busy that you cant even reply a simple msg.
All this only shows that you are taking our friendship too lightly... even if ending this friendship will be fine with you...
Im really disappointed...
I only have myself to blame for taking everything so seriously when others actually dun even care...

Watched The curious case of Benjamin Buttons yesterday... i expected myself to fall asleep cos im not really keen to watch this kind of show(BTW i din know what is the show about and i assume its some boring movie with alot of talkings). True enough, beginning of the show seemed boring and im faling asleep, untill benjanim was born... born "old"... i stayed awake throughout the whole 3 hours... We may have laughed at the old man talking about his 7 lightning strikes encounter, laughing at how benjamin finally agreed to sleep with daisy... but somethings reflected in the life of our own...

As his age increases and getting younger day and day... he encountered alot of things, people looked at him as an old man, he should know more things than many other people, but its the opposite, he asked, he explored and learned many things...

People he loved, he knew left him... one by one... the one he loved getting older and he just cant be with them... the saddest thing was his daugther din even know that the young man standing in front of her was actually her father...

I was wondering when im watching this movie, what if one day the people close to you now had forgotten who you are, forgot all the things that had been done together... what if you are the one seeing your close ones leaving you one by one... its really sad... How would it be when we are all all old with white hair and cant even walk properly...Time is running and age is catching up... We all have goals to achieve, dreams to fulfill... but how much time do we have???

Show's father passed away and din got to see his first concert, christopher lee's father passed away without seeing him getting married... Im really worried that this will happen to me... One had left without seeing us having our own career, getting married... I just hope that god wont take him away so soon... at least let him hug his grandchildren...

It used to be one of my dreams to have such a bolcany of my own like the one in the MV... but its not anymore... cos its my goal now... Haha... gonna take the vcd out and watch this drama again since im damn freaking free and nothing better to do now... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

Yeah! Today marks the end of my study path...
Its over, finally...
I swear i had never studied so hard before in my life...
People say 活到老学到老，我还真的是越读越老！！！
Px and EB came to my house b4 the day of my second last paper...
Im mugging like hell and at the same time watching star movies... LOL...
A "thing" just flew in of my window, i got a shock and ruby got shocked by me and started barking... Before i start to curse and swear, i saw EB hiding at the side of the wall like a thief...
The "thing" was a bread written 加油 Good Luck!
Although i dun like to be disturbed when im mugging, but really appreciate what they had done... got me two promotion cup noodles which is not very nice, ate one last night... two cans of coffee, sweets and a can of bird nest drink...
PX told me i changed to another person... because i did not shave since the start of exam...
i looked into the mirror... im like a 30 years old guy... Haiz...
Did not sleep very well, having so many nightmares, and have to wake up early for last final revision... Damn it...
Anyway, its all over and the feeling was so goooooood...
Felt so light... cos the burden is off my shoulder... eh? or was it something else on my shoulder... SHUTTER DE AR-TER!!!

so much programme coming up... Phuket, Bintan, dunno which one to go...

But before all these, i received a call last night, unknown number, "Hello, may i speak to Zhou Hanwen pls", KNN, insurance... came to my mind... i replied in a very attitude manner, ya, why?
"Congrats, you have just won a pair of tickets to (i did not hear clearly what) with S.H.E next thursday!!! Are you free to attend? " Oh my god, i have a date with S.H.E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Obviously i replied, yes im free... (OF COS FREE LA!!! NOT FREE ALSO MUST CANCEL!!!)
I cant believe it... im so so lucky... it has been 9 years since the last time i won something in a lucky draw... see how suay i am for the last 9 years... the last time i won a beanie baby from lucky draw and gave to my gf... SO excited!!! cant wait for thursday to come!!!
Last week went to my intercon friend house for mahjong... Kate just pop out something... "Yoga concert you sure go one right? Because got S.H.E" I replied its too expensive to go see them for a while... i dun really like yoga live also... BUT now, i dont have to pay for tickets and only can see them from far... not only that... i might have the chance to shake hands with them, have at least one album with their signatures... and even TAKE PHOTO WITH THEM!!! OH MY GOD!!!

I can only say, my luck is here for 2009... TOTO, 4D whatever... here i come!!!!

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PX!!! your friend is on tv!!! fast forward to 4 min...

Oh my GOD OH My god!!!
Just finished watching channel 8's 省钱王 3
introducing TAIWAN!!! OH MY GOD!!!
Tot we had covered most of the places in Taipei, but NO!!!
There are so much more interesting places we had not gone to!!!
And also realised that we actually spend alot on very few things...
I remembered when i was on Taipei 101, i saw the 摩天轮 from far, tot that its from 高雄 which Brandon said there's one there... but no, its so much nearer, and its the place where they shoot 换换爱. And the hot spring, oh my god its the japanese style you know!!! and its really in the open... no shelter!!!
Haiz, nevermind... sure to go again... will be next year or possible this year...
I MISS TAIWAN!!!
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!

Everytime this period of time, i think of everything else except studies... i think of friends, money, family, alot alot... this is the time where i dun meet up with the usual one and kept myself at home trying so hard to study... but every book i read is like a bedtime storybook... i sleep more than usual... this maybe the last time, hopefully...
Things kept changing, people kept changing... and im not catching up...
People come and go, some leaving footsteps, some leaving wounds, and some just left without a trace.. i dun wish to hold anyone back... cos they left just because im not good enough to be part of their lifes... maybe...

This year will have a big change in my life... and im starting to worry...